A Woman of Conviction Ch 12
Chapter 12
EPOV
Dropping Bella off at
her apartment and not going in with her is something that I never thought I had
the control to do. I want to go in and kiss her and tell her that everything is
going to be okay. That Jake is nothing and doesn’t deserve the tears I can see
in her eyes since we left Jasper’s office.
I kick my shoes off,
then yank off my tie, and finally I toss my jacket on the back of a chair. All
I can do is think of the past week. I got my family to completely furnish and
paint the apartment below mine, and even though my parents hadn’t met Bella
they pitched in. They couldn’t be there for the surprise, but I let Bella know
they were involved.
The thousands of times
she said thank you and I appreciate this so much tells
me this woman could never want me just for my money. She is so proud and wants
to earn everything she receives, which is why I also know that it killed her to
not yell at us for what we did for her.
I find my way into the
shower and wonder how she really feels about the project I‘ve her started on.
I settle myself on the
couch with my laptop, trying to work, but thinking maybe I should go down and
see Bella. Would she want to see me? She probably hasn’t had alone time like
this. Maybe I shouldn’t disturb her.
The internal debate in
my head rages on as my body finds myself at her door listening like a fucking
stalker.
I think I hear sobs
coming from the apartment, along with swearing. I can’t help but use my key to
open the door quietly. I see Bella on the couch crying with her laptop in her
lap.
I need to leave. She
obviously wants to be alone. My sane side finally comes through and I leave her
alone, thanking God she didn’t hear me.
My dreams that night are
plagued with thoughts of Bella, kissing and holding her, making her pain
go away. I wake up late and in a hurry to get to the field. It isn’t until I
arrive that I realize that I forgot about Bella and I should have given her a
ride.
“Fuck, fuck!” I roughly
run my hands through my hair, thinking about what I should do. I feel a pair of
arms wrap around my waist.
“Edward!” Lucian hugs me
hard, and I pat his back and smile. I love this kid.
“How was your night with
Mike?” I ask, leading him to a bench to sit and chat.
“It was awesome, his mom
is a baker, so she had lots of cookies and cupcakes for us to test try. And
Mike has so many gadgets and toys that his dad gets him for not spending time
because he’s gone a lot.”
I nod my head, feeling
sorry for Mike just a bit, and then a thought comes to me. “Does he wish he
could spend more time with his dad instead of getting gifts?”
“I asked him that and he
said yeah, and then he asked about my dad.” I can feel the anger and sadness
all in one in his voice.
“What did you say?”
He shrugs his shoulders.
“I said I didn’t know him.”
I nod my head, because I
have the opening I was going for. “Do you want to?”
“I don’t want to get to
know him. I’m glad he doesn’t want us. My mom cried every night ‘til she got
the job with you,” his voice chokes up. I just want to take this kid, say he’s
mine, and be done with it. I want to kill Jake and make him pay for all the
hurt he‘s caused.
I rub my neck, trying to
think of something to say to him. Nothing comes to mind, so I wrap my arm
around him and allow him to lean into me for comfort and support.
“I got your cleats, big
guy.” Bella’s voice breaks me out of my dilemma as she sits down and hands Lucian
his cleats.
“Thanks, Mom.” Lucian
hugs his mom tightly. I watch her eyes roam over me. It makes me want to flex
as if I was in high school. I have fucking issues.
I watch her nibble her
lip; I want that lip between my teeth. Fuck!
She clears her throat
and puts her focus on Lucian while I find myself watching Emmett working with
the kids. Damon is a little beast and since Emmett’s been working with him I
notice a difference in his attitude.
But I can’t keep my eyes
away from the beautiful creature just a few inches away. She’s running her long
fingers through Lucian’s shaggy hair.
She asks him the same
thing I did about his sleepover. She looks even better than when I first met
her. Her hair has life, there’s now color in her cheeks, and she hasn’t missed
a meal since I hired her, so I can see the curves slowly forming on her and I
want to explore them all.
I can see out the corner
of my eye that the first game is about to start. “Better get to your seat,
Bella, the game is starting.”
“Right, yes.” She seems
startled at my announcement. Then she kisses Lucian’s head and leaves to go to
the stands.
I watch her walk away;
her jeans hug her so perfectly.
“Dude,” Lucian breaks my
stare-down with Bella’s ass.
I know I look guilty as
hell when I turn to Lucian who is smirking, his brown eyes sparkling with evil.
The stare-down is long and silent and his grin gets cockier.
“Alright, you busted
me,” I give in, and slouch on the bench to watch Damon play an amazing defense.
I get very in involved with watching the game.
“I don’t want my mom to
cry anymore.” The words are but a whisper.
I nod my head while
leaning on my knees, closing my hands together. “I don’t want to ever make your
mom cry, bub, but sometimes we make mistakes. I can promise to try really hard
never to have your mom cry.” I run my fingers through my hair.
“Okay,” he leans into
me.
“Come on, we better
start warming up, ourselves.” I gather the team up and start the warm-up
process with Quil.
As the kids are doing stretches,
I see Damon make the winning touchdown and the end of the game is called.
With the small break
between games I get the kids on the field for more stretching and positive talk
and before I know it the game begins. The kids play hard and we win.
“Great game, guys,”
Emmett comes up with Jasper, slapping me on the back and giving Lucian and
Damon high fives.
“Thanks, but we are only
as good as our coaches.” Damon smiles.
I can’t help but laugh
and wonder what he could want.
“Who the hell are you?”
I hear Bella yell from behind me. I turn around and see her approach two women
who look scared as hell.
“What the hell? Lucian,
Damon, stay behind us, please,” I tell them and walk over to stand next to
Bella.
“You’re sorry? Please,
you’ve been staring at my friend and her kids during both games.” I hear Tanya
tell off one of them as I come up to Bella’s side.
“I think there has been
some confusion.” The older woman’s voice has some conviction to it.
“I’m waiting.” Bella
crosses her arms.
The older one looks to
the other woman, who is shaking her head, but the older one seems to ignore it.
“See, my husband warned my daughter here about her fiancĂ©. Saying that he
screwed over his daughter that doesn’t speak with him anymore. He made mistakes
that led to it, of course. Anyway, Leah wanted to see for herself if what he
said was true.”
I’m confused as to what
the hell is going on here. I turn my eyes to Bella, whose body is visibly
shaking and looks like she is going to collapse.
“Who is your husband?”
Bella manages to get out as she leans towards me and I put my arm around her to
support her.
“Charlie Swan,” the
woman answers clearly.
Bella falls into my side
and lets out a small sob. “No, no.” I hold her to me as I feel her tears fall
and her head shakes back and forth. Without warning, she pulls away and steps
towards them.
“No, we are not doing
this. I cannot believe you came here and did this in front of my kids. I’m
going to take them to lunch and forget everything that has just happened. You
want to know about your ‘fiancĂ©’, ask his sorry ass. As far as Charlie Swan
goes, he can keep those regrets to himself.” She turns away from them and I
follow blindly.
“Come on, boys, we have
a lunch to get to and some important stuff to talk about.” She takes each of
their hands, ignoring the rest of us. Or forgetting us in her haste.
“Catch up to her,
Edward, I’ll call her later.” Tanya pushes me to go faster.
“We’ll call you later,
sweetie!” My mom yells at me as I run to catch up with Bell and the boys
“Bella,” I touch her
shoulder.
She whips around with
wide, scared eyes, but she relaxes when she recognizes me. “Edward,” she says
my name in relief.
I can’t help but smile.
“I thought maybe I could impose on your lunch.”
She smiles in return. “I
think I would like that.”
As we walk I ponder, who
is Charlie Swan to Bella. I have no clue on any of her family and why they
aren’t part of her life, or why would they leave her and the boys alone and
close to starving.
Not wanting to be pissed
off when we sit down for lunch at a mom and pop diner, I focus on the
incredible woman and her two kids who are quiet.
The silence continues
after we order our food.
“Mom, who were those
people?” Lucian finally asks, keeping his eyes down and nibbling on his lip,
obviously an inherited trait from his mother.
I watch Bella run her
hand through her hair and puff out some air. “I really don’t know, hun. But
there is something else I really need to talk to you guys about.”
I shift, trying to
maintain a neutral face as Bella grabs my hand and laces her fingers between
mine.
The boys shift their
eyes down, clearly waiting for the worst.
“I’ve been talking to
Irina and Jasper. You know how they’re lawyers?” I feel confused at the
direction she’s taking, but who am I to judge.
“Yeah,” they answer
together.
She swallows hard. “You
see, for a little while now, Jake has been wanting to give up his rights to the
two of you.”
“Who is Jake?” Damon
asks in confusion. And for the first time, Lucian looks angrily at his brother.
“He’s the biological
donation that helped create us.” Lucian’s words are laced with anger.
Damon looks sad, “He
hasn’t even met me.”
Bella lets my hand go to
reach for theirs, so I hang my arm on the back of the booth.
“I know, sweetie, and if
he did, he would regret ever wanting this.”
“Good, I don’t want
him at all, Mom. Can you just tell Aunt Irina to give him what
he wants?” Lucian crosses his arms tightly against his chest.
I watch Bella’s eyes
water just a bit as she nods her head. “Okay, baby. Damon, are you okay with
this?”
His little shoulders
shrug and tears dribble from his brown eyes. My heart breaks so much for him.
“I feel really sad and
angry that he doesn’t want me. I want to see him just once.”
“Why!?” Lucian turns his
whole body to Damon.
“Hey,” Bella tries to
defuse the situation before it gets worse. “If that’s what you want, Damon,
I’ll try really hard to make it happen.”
“Oh, it’ll happen,” I
guarantee without realizing that I just interrupted. I can feel Bella’s eyes
burn into me.
I turn my head to her
and mouth sorry.
“Can you really make it
happen?” Damon asks shyly.
I know right then, it
doesn’t matter if I have to pay the bastard a million dollars, he will meet
Damon. “Yes, I can, big guy.” I give him a warm smile.
This seems to make him
happy, but Lucian seems angry.
“Are you mad at me?”
Damon asks Lucian.
“I just don’t understand
why. He doesn’t want us, Damon. But whatever.” Lucian grabs his phone and
headphones and tunes us out.
Bella sighs. “Let’s go
home.”
I find myself wrapping
my arm around Bella’s shoulders as we wait for the driver that will take us
back to the apartments. She seems comfortable with the affection, leaning into
me.
“You better not back out
of your promise, Edward, or I will castrate you.” Before I can respond to her
threat, the car shows up and takes us home.
The boys disappear into
their rooms while I seem to be transfixed on Bella in the kitchen. She’s going
through dinner ideas, pulling different things out.
“You know, my dad kicked
me out right after I was accepted to community college.” She slams down a can
and then grips the countertop. I walk closer, waiting for her to continue.
“My mom died when I was
eight, but I lost two parents because my dad didn’t even try to pretend to care
for me anymore. That’s how I got involved with Jake. He gave me attention and
the affection I was craving. Charlie helped me when Lucian came, he even
defended me when I got pregnant with Damon when Jake was pressuring me to get
an abortion. Then there it was, I graduated high school and he told me I had
two weeks to get a job and move out. I was a parent and an adult and he wasn’t
going to help me anymore. What kind of parent does that?” Her body is trembling,
and her voice is choking on tears.
I want to take all the
pain away. I turn her around, seeing her sad brown eyes. “I am so sorry, Bella.
If you’ll let me, I’ll be here, no matter what. I am never going to leave you.”
I press my lips to hers.
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